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Listened:  Pocahontas ost - The colors of the wind
Disposition: Thinking and happy
Location: PC, Cat is on her lounge and she's sleeping.


I know, I promised to write. 'Cause I was ill I'd to write tree exams again, on monday the resultats will be there.

Tonight, between 4 and 5 o'clock, the transporter with the mor then 80 dogs will arrive from spain. We hadn't had to be there at this time, but we wanted, because of the best for our heart. If she'd had to drive to the woman first, wait there for six hours for driving in another house again, it wouldn't be good for her. So we'll make tea and set the alarm ^___^

I found the little girl by searching for our new dog. She lived in spain for five years, caught as a young pup and brought to the death station. Because of a family, who asked for her a lot of time, she wasn't killed. Now she sat in an animal shelter of spain untill yesterday.

Leila, who's one letter differs her to our former dog, Leika, is 5 years old and about 60cm high. Nobody knows her race, but it's true and really important for us that there is no Potengo in her. (Potengo is a race of 'foxhound', who especially came and live in spain.) We think that she's some kind of  labrador, but the correct mix we'll never found out.
In her discription I could read that the little mouse is a litte angry and afraid, cary but very compatible with other dogs and people (no wonder, 'cause she's a streetdog and had to live together with more than 300 other dogs in the animal shelter.)

We spoke with the animals-rights activist (Tierschüterin) of the site I founded Leila. The talked with us and promised to phone with the activist in the animal shelter in spain for more informations. The callback came and devoted a few more details, a further, nearer description. We know that we'll have to pay a protect charge, but this is very high there. No wonder, because se have to transported to Germany. Anyway, it's nearly the twofold of the taxe we would had to pay for a animal shelter dog in our country. But what to do - we wand to giv her a home. Her, the beautyful thing we love ^__^

*laugh* Yesterdy my mother called again. And the woman said, that, as the latest informations, Leila congeals like a pillar of salt when she see cats! Chérie and Romeo are afraid, too, but in a few days they'll like her, like the other dogs we had before. We've to carry good about this fact and keep the cats away the first night and the following day. But then - our cats aren't dangerous! The do not attac somebody or somehow, no way! Okay, if something attec them they'll bridle, but not if they aren't afraid.

I always wanted to write two or tree lines, but know .. you see. Sorry! Sorry!!

Wish look to our sleeping eyes, please, and pray for my mother to find the way in time!!

Love and little Hearts,
Location: PC
Stimmung: happyhappy
Listened : Pocahontas
06 July 2007 @ 07:35 pm
Listened:  Amerika
Disposition: thinking ans listening misic  
Location: PC, don't know where cat is


Eigentlich wollte ich nur sagen, dass ich noch lebe. Ich weis, dass ich lange nicht geschrieben habe, aber irgendwie .. war ich nie wirklich dazu 'bereit'. In den nächsten Tagen setze ich mich mal dran und versuch meinen Kopf auf die Scheibe vor mir zu projezieren.

Bis dann,
hab euch lieb,
18 June 2007 @ 04:57 pm
Listened:  Mulan - Who I am inside / Wer bin ich
Disposition: crying
Location: PC, cat isn't here, I'm lonely


Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
Can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see
That if I were to truly to be myself
I would break my family's heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?


Momente, Augenblicke. Manchmal will ich nicht. Ich sehe aus dem Fenster, meine Finger huschen über die Tasten, während meine Gedanken irgendwo sind, wovon ich weis, das sie es nicht sollten. Die Sonne scheint, doch hier ist es kalt, meine Tränen hinterlassen feuchte Spuren.

Was macht es mir so schwer
ich erkenn mich nicht mehr.
Wer ist diese fremde Frau
im Spiegel?

Vielleicht ist es, weil es hier einfach viel zu schnell geht. Vielleicht ist es, weil so vieles um mich rum zerbricht. Vieleicht ist es, weil ich Freundschaften verliere, die mir so viel bedeuten. Aki, Dai, Kazu. Vielleicht ist der Tod meines Hundes noch immer schuld, sie fehlt mir so.

Ich will nicht mehr raus, mich niemandem zeigen. Ich hab mich so verändert, bin nicht mehr der Mensch, der ich früher mal war. Nicht mehr der kleine Sonnenschein, wie mich Raux beschrieb und deren Worte ich immer wieder höre. Dai will mich nicht mehr sehn, Kazu denkt etwas, das nicht wahr ist, wegen ihr. Jetzt will ich mich verändern, doch es bricht zusammen, ein einziger Trip, der vor zwei Jahren begann. Damals bin ich nicht gesprungen, bin nicht aufs Dach gegangen und werde es auch heute nicht tun. Nur der Ausweg fehlt mir, wenn ich diesen nicht wähle.

Wann immer ich an meinem Schreibtisch sitze versuche ich mich abzulenken, doch ich möchte nicht online sein dort, wo jeder mit mir sprechen kann; nicht jetzt. Und sonst ist niemand da, keine Posts, über die ich mich freuen würde, keine PNs, niemand will mit mir reden, wenn ich da bin.

Es geht vorbei, es wird vorbei gehn, ich weis das. Doch trotzdem fühle ich mich so schlecht, ich erkenn mich nicht mehr. Wer ist diese fremde Frau im Spiegel.

- - - - -

If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am?

Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I just one part
Of some big plan?

- - - - -

(a few sekunds later).

Es tut gut zu weinen, ich weis, das ich das manchmal brauche. Ich schreibe auf, was ich fühle, einfach hin, was meine Finger auf den Tasten hinterlassen.
Und danach fühl ich mich besser.

Es ändert nichts an der Situation, doch es hilft das alles zu verstehn und zu tragen, zu sehn, dass es weiter geht. Meine Freunde sind da, wenn ich sie brauche, auch, wenn es manchmal so aussieht, als wäre es nicht so - ich weis, dass es nicht stimmt. Und Probleme lösen sich nicht durch zurück ziehen, ich werde das, was ich zu verändern begonnen habe weiterhin tun, damit es mir besser geht und es sich wirklich ändert, nicht so bleibt, weil man nichts tut. Life goes on and we'll convert.

As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand

And the only thing we know
Is things don't always go
The way we planned

But you'll see every day
That we'll never turn away
When it seems all your dreams come undone

We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more than we are.

Stimmung: Crying
Listened : Reflection (Mulan)
07 June 2007 @ 02:16 pm
Listened:  - Changing music and search
Disposition: Normal
Location: PC, cat is sunning two floors above


List seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

My TOP 10
(appointed in two lists)

1. Liste mal nur StS, weil ich das momentan nur höre. Ist nicht in Wichtigkeitsreinfolge, nur so halb.

1. Subway to Sally - Narben
2. Subway to Sally - Kleid aus Rosen
3. Subway to Sally - Minne
4. Subway to Sally - 2000 Meilen unterm Meer
5. Subway to Sally - Traum vom Tod I
6. Subway to Sally - Drei Engel

2. Liste das, was ich sonst höre im Moment, wenn ich die bösen Mittelalterklänge verbanne. Wieder aber nicht nach Wichtigkeit sortiert, einfach mal durchgeschaut und aufgeschrieben.

1. Madonna - I wanna take you there
2. Tokio - Sorafune
3. KIMURA YUMI - Always with me
4. The Lion King II - We are one
 - König der Löwen II - Wir sind Eins.

Location: PC
Stimmung: amusedso and so
Listened : searching
04 June 2007 @ 02:45 pm
Listened: Subway to Sally - Rainman
Disposition: Normal, a bit "arid"
Location: PC, cat is walking on my bed, searching a place to sleep


Comment and I'll...

① Tell you why I friended you.
② Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, a sexual position, etc. (Or, not)
③ Tell you something I like about you.
④ Tell you a memory I have of you.
⑤ Associate you with a character/pairing.
⑥ Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
⑦ Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
⑧ In return, you must post this in your LJ. (If you haven't already done it before ^^')

Location: PC
Stimmung: complacentsooooomething
Listened : StS
Listened: John Ruuter - For the beauty of the earth
Disposition: Practising on my voice and singing
Location: PC, cat is lying ibehind, lying sooo near by my side!!


WISH ME LUCK! (I relly think you say it so ... xD)

.. I've opened the online dictionairy. I think I'll need it *pitsch*

Yes, I know I'd promised to talk about the last week and the new happenings in my life; my familiy, love - and so on. It's really late now, I'll try to do it in the holidays! Two weeks from now on. Soooo happy  ^________^

Again my thanks to Kane, without her I hadn't start to write in english. I know I need it, but I although thinked (I don't know the right past form here, I'm sorry!) that I wouldn't be able to do it. Now I'll try. Thank you, dear *smooch*
(- oh! I've found a word whitch's alike my german smuuuus *happyyyy*)

So. And now tho the theme of this article. (article. how it sound...)
(eh .. if anyone find a really conspicuous fault in a sentence or so on .. please tell me)

- -

I often talk about my singing, but I never really said what's the main point of my voices practicing.
This evening I was on a practice hour with some friends and were so down .. so upset. I couldn't really sing anymore! My voice break so often, it sounds so .. wah! *shaking*
But I'd fun. With my friends. And the olders. Yes, I love them! (And I was the only girl...)
Back at home I treid it again some times. It became better! And better!!
I've uploaded the sing which we sang. I love it. We already sing soul. I love it. (At home I'm listening black gothic and so on, but there .. uuuuh! ^______^ !!

Here the song:

Interpreter: John Rutter
Title: For the beauty of the earth


And if I can belive this chart I can sing to the 'high g' an
respectively (bzw.) 'high a'.
I'm proud. One thing I really can.


Next week I'll speak about my situation here and ''in life''.
See you hopefull soon!


PS: Ich glaub ich steh das doch nich durch. Also .. mal jeder .. gelegentliche Beitrag auf English *husthust*. Aber man musses ja nicht übertreiben, ne? <33
Location: PC
Stimmung: amusedamused
Listened : John Ruuter - For the beauty of the earth